When pushed to the wall ...

Often in tough situations, I surprise myself. Things I believe I may not be able to pull of, seem to be possible when I am left with no choice but to do them. Where attention used to be diffused, in such times, the mind gets focussed to crack the problem, to improvise in search of a solution to a problem that seems not solvable. It may be something as simple as absent- mindedness, of which I am accused of at home. And I believed rightly so, I thought it was beyond me to keep track of a hundred things. But when I had to be alert to many things, because Dad is away, I found that it wasn't all that difficult. Its just a small instance of the many incidents that occurred over the last few months, where I have been pushed to the wall. Each instance has been a learning, a blow that would take away a few more chips from the wall of fear.

Nobody wants to be under constant pressure, but the right dose of pressure is just what the doctor would prescribe for you to discover your capabilities. And when that wall of fear collapses, you don't need to pushed to the wall to make a decision. You are now ready to make tough decisions, of your own will and choice, rather than being dictated by circumstances. The time for some decisions has come :).